Dark Souls II Rant: Rings and the Test of Patience

The title to this post sounds as if I’m a nagging, impatient girlfriend who is expecting a ring on her finger but her boyfriend is too busy playing games. Well, I’m not talking about the relationship between two human beings. I’m talking about my relationship with Dark Souls II Scholar of the First Sin, the game I keep going back to unwind. It’s the perfect melancholic companion whose a bit difficult to get through but very rewarding once you explore all its treacherous paths, including the hidden rooms behind the walls. They are the best because we know treasures lie ahead! As choppy as it feels compared to the first, it’s definitely not seamlessly integrated as Dark Souls in terms of the stage design, but the ambience atmosphere is strangely therapeutic and I sort of prefer it over the first. It does wonder to the senses with its fairy tale like atmosphere. After all, don’t we girls just love fairy tale?

I’m beginning to sound like an undead to call the soul’s universe an alluringly safe place to unwind. No wonder people called us DARK SOULS lovers machoistic. At the moment, I am currently hunting down and testing out rings because I want to be with my abusive lover (Dark Souls II) forever. No, I’m just being sarcastic. So far, Ring of Life Protection is my favorite because I like to remain in human form.

You can equip 4 rings, but would it have made more sense with 5. Weren’t we all born with 5 fingers?

Let me get you some backstory to why I keep going back to my abusive lover, Dark Souls II. Not too long ago I defeated Dragon Quest XI, which is a big accomplishment for me considering that it takes me ages to play games I purchased out of the whim. As I was working on clearing my backlog, I went back to Silver Case but got annoyed fast with its dark theme. Unlike Souls games, it’s hopelessly depressing with no warmth in sight. Plus, too much swearing doesn’t make characters appear tough; they just seem stupid. There was also a hint of misogyny which ruined the entire experience for me.

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If I am going to be a piece of dead meat then I’m going to go to do it in the Souls universe not in Silver Case (thanks Nairdalex for the photo edit).

Now I have been playing Dark Souls II without caring too much about beating it in a timely matter so I can move on to the next game on my list. Despite what people say, it’s the perfect game for me to unwind. I like the quietness. Music in video game is unnecessary. Listening to my character’s footsteps echoing in the hallway and the sound of clashing and clinking of my weapons sounds more relaxing, oddly. I can hear the wind so I think I feel the wind touching my skin. I hear the waves splashing onto the shore and that makes me feel calm. I just like exploring its universe in the comfort of my home.

Currently as I am writing this post, I am at Huntsman’s Copse, preparing for a boss fight against the Executioner’s Chariot. Even though it’s optional, I still want to clear the area just for the sake of it. I walked the same path over and over multiple times by now that it feels less dangerous.

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Annoying sadists preventing me from defeating its boss, the Executioner’s Chariot

I am progressively becoming better each time I enter the boss fight because of familiarity. I learned where to spot the annoying Necromancer black mages that keep spawning skeletons. Keep calm and focus and with a little luck I won’t feel so overwhelmed with a mob of skeletons. Once I clear them away, the boss is not difficult at all. It just the environment and the circumstance that is making it difficult. And that is what keeps me coming back to Dark Souls II. It’s hard, but achievable.

P.S

I beat the Executioner Chariot! Persistence and patience on top of learning where enemies spawn and timing helped me defeat this optional boss! Now I can boast, I did it!

My Video Game Shopping List: Video Games to Cool Down in Summertime

We had a heatwave which made it unbearable to play games without sweating and most older apartments and houses where I am from don’t come equipped with AC. Typically, the temperature tends to be on the mild side throughout the entire year. This year was odd. It was unusually cold in the winter and scourging hot in the summer. Luckily, it was only brief. Call it Global Warming or it’s just Mother Nature’s way of throwing a tantrum and trying to burn things alive and reduce it back to ashes–I need to find games that will cool me down quick, and not burn me. Even just looking at a burning building in Sekirko: Shadows Die Twice, I feel dehydrated. As a result, there’s not much I could do other than literally be a couch potato with an ice pack on my forehead, drinking iced water to keep cool. No seriously, I was on the couch staring at my ceiling-fan spinning round and round like a merry-go-round. The heat was slowly turning me crazy.

I am back with my 3-list post. I browse games and window shop all the time for games. Writing this 3 list post is always fun for me and it gives me a break from thinking things too deeply. So let’s go! What’s in my shopping bag?

1)Tales of the Black Forest

There’s no mystery by now if you have been following this blog that I really do love horror–the suspense and emotional stories that come with it always make me feel as if I gained something out of it and that is appreciating life. Want me to elaborate on what I meant by that? Check out my Kwaidan‘s analyses where I break down the stories and defined horror. So, when I find a horror game that looks interesting to me, I automatically put in my shopping list. Tales of the Black Forest made it on my list for the price which is currently $1.59 on Steam. It’s a deal, I think. Whether you are on the budget or not as I am at the moment due to moving expenses–this is a deal worth checking out.

2) ABZU

I got this game for “free” for having PlayStation Plus. It’s one of those free games that sits in your library as long as you are a member. On Steam it is currently $9.99. I don’t really think it’s a bad price for the content. Normally, I don’t play this sort of game to past time, but the summer heat does get to me and I don’t think there is a more perfect game to dump myself in the ocean to feel refresh mentally.

3) Ori and the Will of the Wisps

I have seen a couple gameplays and bloggers writing about this game and I have always wanted to play it. If I were to make a video game purchase, I think I’d go for this one which is currently $14.99 on Steam. The visual is stunningly beautiful and the adventure, I am sure, will help me escape from the summer’s heat. In addition, the undertone of the plot seems positively mystical, which is something I prefer lately. With all the chaos going on, watching Death Note the anime got to me. I’m not in the mood for a battle of the wit where teenagers make big godly life decisions over another life or simply I’m just not in the mood for dark content at the moment. I still have a couple of more episodes to go before I give it a proper assessment.

Well, that’s it for my 3-list post. It was fun looking for games to play like always. Now I just need to sit through and play one of them. Currently, I am playing Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice. Playing a calmer game on the side might balance things out for me. There are times, I cannot sit and play for a long time because of the heat. And then I often wonder in my youth why my favorite season has always been fall.

P.S

I did not purchase any of the games above but decided to resume Dragon Quest XI. Game has a calming effect compared to Sekiro for obvious reasons.

My Notes on Nier Automata

Originally posted 6/18/2017. Re-blogging in celebration to one of my all time favorite game–Nier Replicant Ver.1.22474487139 which will be released 4/23/2021. 

I highly recommend playing the game before reading this post.  I will not elaborate the storyline into details.  My intention is to share my summary of the game which may differ from yours.

For those who followed this blog from the beginning probably knew that I was anticipating for Nier Automata (2017) ever since its announcement.  In fact, I was very hungry to play another game like Nier (2010)  and was hoping Drakengard III (2013) would be just as good. To my disappointment, I  didn’t enjoy it as much mainly because of the frustrating gaming mechanics ( I didn’t enjoy flying the dragon).  And yet I stuck with it because of the storyline and it’s humorous dialogue.  I have not reached the ultimate, final boss yet which I heard was difficult.

I had to stop the game because I couldn’t understand  Zero’s (the protagonist) cruel intention to kill all her sisters. The character was hard for me to relate.  I was definitely playing a killer.  But after I watched Yoko Taro’s interview Philosophy of Violence, I learned to appreciate his approach in storytelling and the concept behind it.  I realized Zero’s behavior is natural, but primitive.  Instinctively we want to remove whatever is in our path.  Defeating our obstacles give us a sense of control and remove all of our competitions.  However, if we killed everyone in our way, we would end up dying alone and the aftermath would be Nier Automata.

I came to conclusion because I had to grasp my head around this killing frenzy around Yoko Taro’s games,  so I categorize his three games that I played into the following:

  • Drakengard III- killing to be the only one
  • Nier Gestalt- killing is justified as long as you think it is right
  • Nier Automata- killing loneliness

*One important thing to note, this is just my notes for the time being.  I really would like to complete the Drakengard series *

Onward to the main topic,  so when I started Nier Automata, I already knew it was about killing.  The game started off strong, which reminded me of Xenoblade Chronicles’ introduction where the characters are thrown into battle against the machines.   Once I arrived to a safe place (a city reclaimed by Mother Nature), I sensed that I was entering a world where a great civilization (mankind in general) once stood, but mysteriously drove itself to extinction.

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All we have left are machines and androids fighting one another.  In some ways, the game has a particular viewpoint about existence, which is hard not to notice if you do the side quests. It clearly pointed out that all lifeforms don’t want to fight all the time– they just want to co-exist. What meaning is there to killing? Why?

The real motive behind all the killing is more than just impaired thinking–it’s loneliness.   In the end, no one stands. But the tragedy is not the cycle of destruction, it’s actually the inability to view the world harmoniously, which is probably why 2B and 9S wear blindfolds. They exist to take orders without comprehending their actions.

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I won’t go any further into details about the game’s concept because I am beginning to develop my own theory, which is probably not what the game intended.  I do just want to mention my overall experience with the game is good, but it is not one of my favorites. I like the first installment more partly due to nostalgia. Even though, I did not enjoyed the game as much, the game made me want to play Ikaruga, which has been sitting in my backlog of games to play.

Lastly, my final thought in regards to Nier Automata,  I’m starting to understand that it’s difficult to introduce big ideas and incorporate gameplay due to unforeseen limitation (e.g, technical, budget, translation etc.).  So I really do appreciate when game developers attempt to give meaning to their creation.

Well that is it for now. Thanks for reading guys. Until next time, take care!

P.S

Think I will play Fragile Dreams: Farewell Ruins of the Moon next to clear my backlog before I jump into a new game.  My backlog began to grow back in 2010-2011 when I started playing co-op/multiplayer games. It is time to seriously tackle the single-player games list!

My Top 3 Best Video Game Soundtracks

If I don’t put “My” in the title, people will get upset, not realizing my opinion is not a fact. What is the irony in that? Unfortunately, many people are quick to speak than think. You can argue with me all you want on what is the best video game soundtrack because it will go from one ear to the next and then into thin air. My top 3, how subjective can that be? Yep, I am back with my list of three.

[By the way, I hope you enjoy the introduction. I feel like rhyming :)]

I love music generally, so it’s no surprise I love listening to video game music even after I am done with a game. It makes me feel hopelessly in love. There is a romantic side to me. After all, I’m only human.

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In the summer of 2010, I had one of the most memorable summer playing a game called Nier Gestalt; it blew my mind away in terms of storytelling. Back then, I was a penniless student. I couldn’t afford to go on a vacation. So there wasn’t much to do for summer break. It is one of those games where it will stick with you long after you complete because the music is so hauntingly good that I was under its spell for a long time. In my opinion, Nier Automata failed to capture that very same magic. The only thing it has going is a smooth gameplay. If you didn’t get a chance to the play the first installment, you will! There is a new version in the making. I just hope the sound effects and music don’t deviate much from the original! I don’t think anyone can argue that it doesn’t have one of the best video game soundtrack ever!

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Next up. It may not seem like it since I don’t cover much western media, but I actually love western literature, especially Greek drama. Oedipus Rex is one of my favorite plays. I can tell Trinity Souls of Zill O’ll was inspired by the play. But what made me love this game is how immersive and artistic the game is. It is like looking at a painting! And good music composition only alleviates the player’s experience. If you are a fan of JRPG, this is a hidden gem and a must play. I have two copies of the game. I love it that much if it weren’t for the music.

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Final but not least, El Shaddai: Ascension of the Metatron. Another artsy game that looks pretty good on the Xbox 360. It is also available for the PS3. Gameplay is clean and highly addictive. The stages are unique from one another so monotone is not in its vocabulary. However, the only weak point is the story: it’s difficult to follow. Like Nier OST, I listened to the soundtrack long after I beat it. It’s good music for studying, working or just for plain background noise. It has a heavenly sound to it. If you feel the need to escape somewhere peaceful, I recommend this soundtrack.

Honorable mention: Shenmue. No surprise there as it is my favorite game.

I hope you enjoy my list and found something you like. Let me know what your favorite soundtracks are. I am always looking for new music. Until next time, bye bye.

Ranting about the Demon’s Souls Remake Trailer

Woke up to the sound of idiots racing down the streets. Normally after a few minutes, it follows a blasting sound coming from the cop siren, but not this time. I hope no homeless person camping out on the side of the street got hit. We live in a strange time and I know I’m overdue for a post. I hope my introduction didn’t leave you perplexed. It’s kind of hard not to feel on the edge when chaos is slowly taking control over the world. But I feel like I have prepared myself for this insanity a few years ago. What better way to prepare it by sharpening your mental agility by playing Demon’s Souls, a game praised for its difficulty, released in 2009 for the PlayStation 3? It’s good for brain exercise and will make you feel alive if you are the type who like a fair challenge.

Quite frankly, I am not too hasty about playing the remake as I’m not in the rush to purchase PS5 and it may be a year down the road that I might pick it up. But what really turns me off is how bright the game is. I originally played the game for its dark dreamy, fairytale-like atmosphere but the remake just looks too sharp and polished. There’s also too much noise coming from the character’s footsteps and his clunky armor. It’s too loud. In the original Demon’s Souls it’s more quiet and subtle and the more you die, it becomes more quiet as quiet as the sound of a feather falling down.

The only reason why I would only consider picking up the remake it’s because it’s one of the few co-op games that I actually enjoyed. Unless the remake has the ability to use mic–then that will surely destroy the atmosphere. From what I remember, the game is immersive and fun. It feels as if I was transported into a different world–thanks to the soundtrack and it’s beautiful world creation. If I can recall, players can rate people as well on their gameplay’s performance. Some people are nice and will give you a good score, some are just plain assholes. Nonetheless, there aren’t many games that made me feel so attached to a world. It’s one hellish adventure, but a strange one that I can’t pinpoint. I guess that’s the power of immersion.

This is one of the games I am proud to say I own the Deluxe Edition. It comes with the original soundtrack, artbook and official guide. It’s my treasure and I am not going to sell it unless I’m desperate for money or I am on my deathbed and I need to pass it on to a passionate gamer so my soul will depart the earth peacefully without care. Okay I am dramatic. I know. That’s how much I love the game and that’s why I am wary of the remake.

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The $$$ I Flushed Down the Toilet (Video Games Purchase)

Well I am back with my 3 list of recommendations, but this time I don’t recommend them. I called this The $$$ I Flushed Down the Toilet Edition post. If there is a game that looks promising and you are tempted to buy on launch day, tell yourself to halt! The price of the game will eventually drop. Don’t flush your money down the toilet especially during these hard economic times. There is a possibility you would feel ripped off. Plus, I’m pretty sure your backlogs huge. The games ain’t going to run away so you don’t need to buy on launch day.

We all know videogames can be expensive to begin with and some people like me enjoy browsing games, hoping to play the next big thing that will send our heads flying out of space because reality sucks. Oh I wonder how many times I have envisioned Nemesis from Resident Evil came crashing into my office building where I work or when I was a teenager, I used to pray for some little excitement like human combustion or something so I can get out of school. Only in videogames I can unleash my craziness!

There are times I made a bad gamble and purchased games I regret, so here are the following three (keep in mind everything I say is subjective. Please don’t take offense if I mention the games you like. We all know gamers can get really touchy with their games.):

#1 Silent Hill: Homecoming

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As you probably know by now if you have been following this blog, I love survival horror games. Fell in love with the genre when my brother introduced me to Parasite Eve. Take that back, it was actually Friday the 13th on the NES that made me enjoyed the genre. There was a moment in time where I was separated from my family for awhile so I miss playing games with my brother. So when we do get the chance to play games together, we get excited and happy. We bought Silent Hill Homecoming which turned out to be a big fat disappointment. My brother and I thought we could relive our childhood memories playing this survival horror game, but when things got juicy in the game and we thought we were halfway, the credits started rolling and we were left baffled by what we just played. So yes I paid the full price. I believe it was 60 dollars excluding tax. So around 64 dollars down the toilet. Actually I trade it in for 11 dollars at some boutique game shop. I still got ripped off because it was that crappy.

#2 Extermination

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I remember buying this game without knowing who was the game designer, so a couple years later when I found out SWERY designed this game, I was shocked because I enjoyed Deadly Premonition, which I played a few years later. Unlike Deadly Premonition, this game is booooooooooooooooooooooring. I tried so hard to enjoy it but it felt like a chore to beat, so I just gave up. There I go again. Money down the toilet because once upon a time, I thought all survival-horror games were created equally. Oh such a naïve little girl, I was.

#3 Nioh

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I know some of you soulsborne lovers might be shock that I listed this game despite the fact I am a souls fan. Well no offense, this game is not a soul game and I never treated it as a soul game. I didn’t dislike this game because it didn’t meet the soul-like criteria, I just found the gaming mechanics and the level design a bit rather disappointing. It simply didn’t flow well to my liking. So I never finished the game because I got bored. It is such a shame because the demo was promising but not the final product.

So there you have it. Now it’s your turn. What are your regrets? I want to hear from you. I hope we still can be blogging friends after I just finished revealing the $$$ I flushed down the toilet purchases. Until next time, bye-bye for now.

Horror Games for Halloween

It is beginning to feel like fall thank goodness. Warm weather makes me sleepy. I think it’s safe to say Halloween is approaching and it’s time to be in Halloween festive mood? Horror games and horror movies–and no Scooby-Doo, Where Are You! does not count as being a scary show– not even for a kid.

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Today is a lazy post as I ordered a game recently so I will post less sporadically, but will post lighter content as I want to keep this blog rolling. Plus October is a very busy month. The volume of work is exhausting. I wish I had more time to work on this blog, which is probably why I deleted my old blog in the first place because I was so exhausted mentally. Blogging can be very addicting (congratulations WordPress, you are the 2nd place I go to on the web. First place is Youtube). Although I must admit, I wouldn’t be blogging if there is a part of me who feels a little lonely from time to time. After all, regardless how introverted you are, especially during this strange time, humans are meant to connect so thank you to those who take time to read and visit my blog. It means a lot.

There is a part of me that is not so proud to tell people I like to play scary games because of the look on their face. After all, I am the gal with the stuffed animals on my desk. They cheer me on while I am working so I don’t stress.

As long I earn money, I have the right to spend my free time however I want. Plus my co-worker, who is also like a mentor/friend said I should find a community– I’m trying to find like minded people but it’s harder than I thought. Oddly, I don’t classify myself as a geek, nor do I classify myself as a nerd, nor do I classify myself as a sexy girl gamer (I am far from that) and definitely not a goth. I don’t know what I AM!! Oh you better not think I am weird because I hate that word. I am not weird. I’m just content. You can achieve nirvana if you learn to find love within yourself. I feel as if I have finally found my voice.

Anyway, without further ado, here are some horror related- posts I enjoyed writing for this blog that you might enjoy.

  1. Rule of Rose is probably a game that I would classify as art, unfortunately I don’t have the actual copy of this game. Due to its content it was banned. My biggest mistake was listening to the store clerk at the time that it never got a release. I should have checked elsewhere because I heard it did get a U.S release.
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2) Kuon. This game is ironically soothing and relaxing to play even though it’s a scary game, but it’s scary in a different way. It’s quiet that’s why I like it so much. The storytelling is superb in my opinion. If you like strong female characters, this is the game.

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4) NightCry. This game is underrated despite what reviews say how clunky the game is. It’s charming. It’s like going through a maze and playing peekaboo. I love it and it made laugh. Sad thing is–I was playing this game while visiting my mother in the hospital. I guess now you know why I enjoyed playing horror games because that was the mental state I was in.

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Now I don’t really feel the need to play horror games nowadays. I am actually swimming for a fresh of air. Bright colored games are appealing to me. Blue sky, and children laughing–I like that. The game below is the game I will spend my majority afternoon with–it’s date night with 13 Sentinels Aegis Rim. Okay bye bye for now.

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It Doesn’t Sound Right to Say I Beat Art: My Thoughts on Games as an Art Form

Why does it feel good when you complete a game, but not when you finish a film? I remember several years ago, I spent every morning playing Okami on Playstation 2. It was the only time of the day I didn’t feel guilty enjoying a game because video games are known as a waste of time by society’s standard. Nowadays, it’s a bit more acceptable. Gaming and coffee was a great way to start the day (that’s how I became a morning person). I remember Okami wasn’t necessarily mind blowing, but it was good enough for me to complete. It took me about 60 hours. As I mentioned in one of my posts, I play games thoroughly. So when the credits started rolling, I felt a little sad that my journey has come to an end, but the result was quite rewarding. I felt a sense of achievement because I cleared the game.

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When it comes to films, I can sit and watch for an hour without feeling anything but entertained, depending if the movie is good. However, games require a lot of memorization, backtracking, and problem solving. No wonder, I often feel mentally drained once I beat a game. Games are simply expensive and time consuming. Movies on the other hand, are less expensive, less effort and therefore less rewarding in terms of achievements. I don’t feel the need to brag to my brother that I just finished watching a film. So when I hear people say video game is art, I sort of disagree even though I enjoy the artistic side of it very much. Yes video games can be artistic, but it is still not an art form. You see, I didn’t play Okami for art sake. I played the game to beat it. There is nothing wrong with enjoying the story that comes with the game. However, in the end, you play to beat. You don’t say to someone: “Congratulations for completing the film.” It sounds awkward. Did it really require a lot of effort and time to complete a film other than requiring your full attention?

And before you jump the gun on me, I didn’t write this blog post to promote war, but a dialogue. If you have a different perspective, leave me a comment. I don’t mind being challenged. In fact I encourage you to prove me wrong.

Dark Souls: What the Bonfire Says about Humanity

Dark Souls sounds pretty dark, so dark that my non-gaming friend asked me why I play such a satanic game. Her question made me probe about my obsession with it. So I googled Dark Souls content on the internet. What was the result that stood out to me the most? The word masochist. In fact I didn’t know that word exist. Dark Souls players are masochists. According to Google dictionary, masochist is

a person who derives sexual gratification from their own pain or humiliation.”the roles of masochist and mistress (in general use) a person who enjoys an activity that appears to be painful or tedious.”

Feeling self-conscious about myself, I begin to ponder about my true nature as a human being. So I start to reflect on what Dark Souls really mean?

From Dark Souls prologue, we know that fire gives life, but “from the dark they came and found the souls within the flame.” Whatever this darkness is, it causes something to ignite within the life form–which drives living things to action and eventually to madness. So to prevent going Hollow (cold), players have to reach to the bonfire. The game design is very addictive. So addictive that I couldn’t play any other games for a long while. I was possessed by the satanic game!

If you look at the bonfire closely, it is not just a mere bonfire. A sword thrusts into the flames of the human ash. This implies the continuous cycle of life and death. A place for the souls to resurrect. Once a player dies, they come back alive at the bonfire. Think bonfire as a home–where you rest and prepare yourself for tomorrow’s battle.

All undeads, including you as the player, are naturally attracted to the flames because that is where you came to exist. Going without flame for too long, you will die and eventually lose your humanity. The result is Hollow. I like to think Hollows as corrupted politicians. I think every politician started out with good intention, but the more power he/she has, the more abuse he/she can do without having remorse.

So time again and again, you’d hear the phrase: “May the Flames Guide Thee” in the game. It is a reminder to the undead to cling onto the warmth within them. By doing so, the bonfires are not just checkpoints to meet the final destination. The bonfires play a significant role in the story because they are “corporeal manifestation” of each Fire keepers’ soul, the protector of life. She attends to the bonfire, protecting the flame from dying so that the player does not “gradually loses his humanity, until his wits degrade completely (Lucatiel’s quote from Dark Souls II).”

So this brought me to the question: Am I a masochist for liking Dark Souls? The answer is no, but I can be corruptible–in fact everyone can. The Souls series is like a video game bible. It preaches its story through the gaming mechanics. That’s why players eventually turn into ugly skeletons. I remember when I created my character, I want it to look beautiful, but then I quit caring about my appearance when I kept turning ugly! I then turn all of my attention to reaching the next bonfire at all cost. I was literally in fact, on my way to turning Hollow (mad).

You might think it’s all dark, but the ability to grasp that one can lose sight of what it truly means to live, means that there is also a lot of warmth in this game. It wants to teach us how to think. That’s why I enjoyed this game a lot.

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Civilizations rise then fall and fire begins it all. We are built with an understanding and respect for the needs of every human beings. That is humanity. I think this is the reason why the Greek god Zeus, protector of guests, favors hosts that provide good hospitality. To be human is to offer warmth. Without warmth, the flame, we are dead both physically and mentally.  And according to an item description in Dark Souls, “the soul is the source of life and whether Undead or even Hollow, one continues to seek them.” What are we without the soul? We cease to exit. So yes, the game is about dark souls. We kill others for their humanity until there is no point of return. We kill others to survive. No wonder my friend called it a satanic game.

If you enjoy this post, please check out my other Souls posts from this blog. I had fun writing them and thank you for reading!

Dark Souls: What I Learned About Ash Lake and the Sexual Creatures

Dark Souls: Exploring Is an Achievement

No It’s Not You, Most Modern Day Games Are Blah…but Some Are Decent. Don’t Lose Hope!

Every time I make a comment about games–someone deleted their blog. I didn’t know I have so much power. I feel bad that is why I am writing this post. I hate to see a passionate gamer lose interest in gaming to the point he has to delete his blog. Trust me, you are not alone.

Let’s get this straight. I am not young. I’m a 90s kid. Partially being an “old lady” with life responsibilities and the stress that comes with it, my interest in games have decreased drastically. Like many gamers, I struggle to enjoy games. I even try to cling onto the very hope that I will get to play a game that will make me smile again like the smile of a newborn babe that just crawled out the crib from Parasite Eve. But I just don’t have that energy and time to enjoy the hobby as much as I used to.

Work completely wiped me out and I’m partially crazy for being miss independent. I live life like a bachelor and I kind of like it. Over the years, I feel this tremendous tiredness. My time now is spent on grocery shopping, looking for recipes that will give me energy during the day. To cut cooking time, I snack more than I eat actual meals so I can make time for games (it’s not healthy actually). When I am not gaming, I find myself cleaning, organizing, washing dishes, staring into space and not thinking about anything as a way to unwind my mind. It works actually. My stress reduced a lot. Ever since I work from home, you would think I want to play games. Wrong. To curb my gaming “addiction”, I browse games but don’t buy them. There are some games that I kept putting in my shopping cart, but then I removed it, knowing that I probably won’t enjoy it, so why bother? I even found amusement watching games go on sale on Steam and compared it to Playstation store. They really are competing for players time.

There are so many games out there and it’s almost a gamble every time. We don’t have an infinite amount of time to try every game out there and know whether it is good or not. I am the type that likes to play games thoroughly which is why I am probably the slowest gamer on the planet. I feel so overwhelmed with all the choices apart from all the books, T.V shows and films that demand for my time so I turn to reviews on WordPress. Then I realized it’s a matter of the reviewer’s taste and not so much about the game whether it is good or not. For instance, I am not a huge visual novel games fan, so Doki Doki Literature Club! did not impressed me. Undertale is a good game, I heard, but I couldn’t get around to playing it because the game is a bit painful to look at. The House in Fata Morgana is good, but not great. It’s no Shakespeare but it has potential. So after feeling a little let down and learning that everyone has his/her own unique taste in games, I find myself gambling again with game purchases and I’m fine with that. The happy purchases I made this year were:

Spirit Hunter: NG

As I mentioned earlier, I don’t really enjoy visual novel games, but I loved this game. The story was intriguing and it kept me on my toes. Not a single moment did I find it dull. I like the character designs a lot, including the monsters. There were certain parts in the game that actually scared me. It’s a rare thing because I rarely get scared playing horror games.

Code Vein

This game is generically good. When I say generic, I meant it was an enjoyable game to play in terms of gameplay. It felt good shooting and slicing stuff. I like how it feels like Dark Souls but in anime style. I like that I can create my avatar because it makes the experience more personal to the point I started to develop a small crush on Yakumo even though he is a terrible tank and he got me killed a few times! But I still like him because he is a boy!

So don’t make fun of single men with 2d girlfriends because I am on the same boat! The virus makes it even harder to travel or let alone date. That is why I sympathize with the fat pervert in Tokyo Dark to the point it motivated me to write a critical review. Not everyone has luck in finding a compatible partner.

For those who don’t know. I will tell you my gaming style. I am a survival-horror fan, Type-A personality, Dark Souls lover type of gamer. My favorite weapon of choice is the magnum (in real life I don’t like guns). I like feeling on the edge because it helps me stay focused. Typically, I have a hard time concentrating. It’s a disability. It’s my brother fault who introduced me to games. But at the same time, if it weren’t for games, we wouldn’t have such a bond. He is my best friend actually. So when I think about losing interest in games, it makes me feel as if a part of me has died.

Who knows what the future holds. In the past, I have told myself several times I am quitting and I thought I would but I find myself longing for the same excitement I once had playing games with my brother. Recently, my brother texted me about Eiyuden Chronicle. As much as I’m happy to hear, I don’t feel too confident that it would have the same spark as Suikoden Series, which is my favorite JRPG. I guess you will never know until you play and that is probably why buying and collecting games can be so addictive.

P.S

Sorry to the guy who deleted his blog because he couldn’t find passion in gaming anymore. I hope my comment wasn’t the reason. Games these days have been blah and it’s even harder to enjoy games when the world is in chaos.